IT and BB are a thing of the past, and we continue to have an annual threesome with HD and an annual foursome with HD and OW. It’s so much fun, sooooo much fun. More than fun actually, it’s satisfying in a deep and profound way. I may have a need for atypical sexual experiences the way other people have a need for typical ones.
H and I have been too busy to look for another couple, one that is geographically closer and philosophically desirous of the kind of relationship we want. We both work full time, have a business on the weekends and evenings, and have a young child. We just don’t have the time to date another couple.
I’m a little concerned that we’re simply becoming satisfied with our few annual forays. They’re wonderful —- and the more often they happen the better they become. HD was in town for a couple of nights recently and, by the last night, there was almost none of that initial awkwardness. And, as always happens when you get more comfortable with each other, the sex gets better and better.
It’s great —- more than great really. But it’s not ideal.
I may have to simply accept that this is all I can get. But, if I had my druthers, it simply isn’t enough. I still want a full blooded, vibrant relationship. I want to have private jokes, knowing looks, absentminded affection AND fabulous, sweaty, uninhibited, unbelievable sex. I have that with H, and I know it’s simply greedy of me but I also want it with H and others.
If HD and OW were close enough to have sex with more regularly I’m sure I would satisfy myself with that and never look for another couple. So maybe it’s a good thing that they are so far. Because our recent long weekend with HD just left me wanting more weekends. And wanting more weekends, makes me want more than just weekends.
It’s a rare and difficult thing, I know. It’s hard enough to get it with one other person, let alone 2 or more. What we have with HD and OW is great, more than great actually. But it’s only twice a year, and I really want more than that.
I’m hungry for group sex AND relationship. Very hungry. What we have with HD and OW is enough to stave off starvation, but it certainly isn’t sustaining.
And yet — I’m just not ready to go back on the hunt. In March I took a bad blow to the knee, in May I had knee surgery. (HD’s visit was a month after the injury, when I was up and around, but before I had surgery.) I’m just not up to it physically right now.
BUT I am well enough to think about it, and I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately.